Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion;)

It's hard to see my Mom cry because she is normally so strong. Last night, I could just see it on her face that something was wrong. She had been feeling back pain all day, then in the evening she started coughing. These seemingly harmless symptoms are actually more serious with her because she has a tumor on her spine so the back pain is due to the tumor and tumors on her lungs and if her cough gets worse its a sign her lung tumors are getting larger.

When I looked over at her I could see she was thinking to much so I told her to stop worrying. Thats when she just started crying and telling me that maybe her cancer was just too advanced and it was too late for her. I reminded her of the patients we have seen at the clinic that come in in wheelchairs and told her we have to keep fighting. Then, I asked her if she just felt lik crying that maybe we could cry together. So we did, we cried for a good 15 minutes, we let all the fears and worries out. After that we prayed washed our faces and went right to sleep.

This morning she said she slept well and that the crying actually helped her fall asleep faster. Having cancer is like riding a rollercoaster of emotions, somedays you have really good days and some days you have really bad. I applaud my Mom for her strength to keep riding, most would have given up by now. Today will be a better day I can feel it!