|Mom sleeping with Don King, thats what I call her wig;)|
Today was kinda blah, we just had a doctor’s appointment. Mom was given a new medication and a new billL. Her cough has come back which freaks me out but I think it’s only because she’s been worrying about her financials. I try to tell her not to worry but I know it can’t be easy dropping thousands of dollars a day.
Instead of raising money for huge organizations that only sponsor big pharmaceutical clinical trials why can’t there be organizations just for patients to pay directly for whatever therapy they want. That’s why I never donate to the American Cancer Society or any other BS cancer organization because most of the money doesn’t go to the patients. Trust me I’ve worked there, I know where the cash goes and it’s BULLSHIT!
Unfortunately in America it’s more cost effective for people to die. No one really cares until it’s your Mom, Dad, Sister or Brother in trouble. I know I didn’t.
Today for dinner I just ate alone and let Mom rest. It was nice to get away for a second and be depressed. I try to stay positive but some days you just have to give in and have a good cry fest with yourself and look pouty. I text my teacher, he hasn’t text me back. He’s probably busy caring for his sister and 3 year old nephew. As much as I try to turn this into a mini-vacate its not, It’s doctor’s appointments and sickness. Our New Zealand friends left, so I can’t hang out with them and understandably Mom only has the energy for doctor’s appointments. Tomorrow will be better!