Fighting Stage 4 Leiomyosarcoma one day at a time

Hello Everyone,

Thank You for visiting, I initially started this blog to keep family and close friends updated on our journey to Houston Texas, to visit with Dr. Burzynski, a world renowned doctor, who specializes in cancer.

A year and a half ago, MB was diagnosed with stage 4 Uterine Leiomyosarcoma and given no more than a year to live.

MB is only 50, she hasn't seen any of her kids get married or have babies. She still has a thirst for life, three kids and a Husband who absolutely adores her. My sister is 23 and youngest brother only 17. We still need our Mama Bear. If you are, or were, blessed enough to have an MB like mine, who has always loved you unconditionally and supported you, you will know how we feel. Nothing can replace a mother's love. Nothing.

Because MB's cancer is very aggressive, we had no time to waste. The very same day the doctor told us to prepare for hospice, MB and I said, "Fu*k That!", Hospice is a dirty word at our house.We started applying to the Burzynski Clinic as soon as we got home from the doctors appointmet, after 3 days of collecting medical records and sending faxes we were finally accepted.We never took time to think, we just acted. No more than a week and half after we were told to go home and prepare for death, we were on a plane headed to Houston TX in search of life and a second chance. We've left California and our family during Thanksgiving.

Even though the treatment is crazy expensive and we are away from home during the holidays, this is still the best decision we ever made. Sometimes you have to bet big to win big!

We aren't the Kardashians, we are just the Vargas' and we are going through the "realest" hardest battle of our lives...This is our story....If you'd like to start reading from the very beginning click on November, on the lower right hand side of the page and the very first post is the "Adventure Begins"

Saturday, November 26, 2011

I danced...again, and kissed some more;)....Thank God for this Cowboy!

Why does my soulmate live in Houston!???....he would!

Best double date crew EVER!

Texas Boo and I having a fabulous time!
He does action shots with me!
So, I'd like to think I'm strong but somedays the stress just gets to me and I start getting panic attacks. As we were driving home on Thanksgiving I had a pretty severe attack. Friday, my nerves were just on edge, my head felt heavy and my left eye wouldn't stop twitching. Waves and waves of anxiety splashed over me throughout the day,I felt like I was drowning. When my nerves get this bad there is only one person to call, My BFF Ada Silva! She is  amazing, she lets me cry and makes me laugh all at the same time. She told me, "girl, I Love You, I miss you, cry all you want with me but when you get up to the room with MB you better have your shit together, now go out with that cowboy and do what you do best to relax!" (get your minds out of the gutter people, what I do best is have fun, lol).

I took my BFF's advice and accepted and invitation from the cowboy to go to his cousins wedding. Let me begin by saying that he is one of the most polite and sexy guys I have ever dated. Usually you either get sexy but stupid or polite but fellito(nice way of saying ugly in spanish). First off ,I made him wait an hour in his car while I finished getting ready. Thats his fault, he showed up for our date 15 minutes early and I was running half an hour behind. When I told him I'd be a while he said, "take all the time you need Mam". He calls me MAM how cool is that?!?!?!

At the wedding he introduced me to all his friends and family. I even met his brother. He loves showing off his girl from Cali, lol. My BFF and Hubby met us at the wedding and we all ended up having a blast. I even line danced! The whole time I was dancing I kept thinking to myself" IM LINE DANCING IN TEXAS I AM SOOO COOL", lol, yes, the little things bring me such joy now. My cowboy dances any song I want with me, whether he knows how to dance it or not, he tries, and thats good enough for me.We had soo much fun we were the last ones to leave the wedding.

He drove me home, I ran up, let MB know I was back, threw on some sweats and ran back down to chill with him in his car. We talked for HOURS! I just let the smoothe sound of his voice wash over me. The accent and his smell drive me insane! He smells so freaken good. Ok, Ok we didn't just talk, we also kissed, and tugged and pulled and kissed some more. No smushing, I have decided not to go there with him. I have a feeling I'd like it to much, I'd probably go through withdrawls when I got back to Cali. He is so passionate and patient. Totally respectful. I ended up falling asleep in his arms while he brushed his fingers through my hair. Lets just say I slept like a baby, the stress was GONE!

When I realized it was 4 am I ran back up to my room giddy as hell, MB was like you were NOT down there with Monique(my TX BFF), DANG IT, I can't get anything past her. I was like "no, no I wasn't I was making out with Eric (My Cowboy), MB just gave me an exasperated look and then started asking me how he was and we exchanged the juicy details. MB stopped trying to be my MOM about 15 years ago, now she settles for being my BFF and exchanging the most intimate moments of my life with her. She is amazing, we just layed there and talked like two roomates in college exchanging their date stories. I am so blessed to have this type of relationship with my MB. She is one of a kind:)


  1. Wait, MV...jeans to a wedding? :o)

  2. No chorizo but I got a preview, and damn i'm missing out!...effin VTOWN I love you!

  3. It was a Texas wedding, and I didn't bring any clothes!...I didn't know i'd be going to a wedding, we walked in with our own cooler of beer, it wasnt a super fancy wedding like yours VTOWN!

  4. Mariela he is a HUNK in every sense of the word……I think he might just be your knight in shining armor and adorable……I bet MB will love him too!!