Fighting Stage 4 Leiomyosarcoma one day at a time

Hello Everyone,

Thank You for visiting, I initially started this blog to keep family and close friends updated on our journey to Houston Texas, to visit with Dr. Burzynski, a world renowned doctor, who specializes in cancer.

A year and a half ago, MB was diagnosed with stage 4 Uterine Leiomyosarcoma and given no more than a year to live.

MB is only 50, she hasn't seen any of her kids get married or have babies. She still has a thirst for life, three kids and a Husband who absolutely adores her. My sister is 23 and youngest brother only 17. We still need our Mama Bear. If you are, or were, blessed enough to have an MB like mine, who has always loved you unconditionally and supported you, you will know how we feel. Nothing can replace a mother's love. Nothing.

Because MB's cancer is very aggressive, we had no time to waste. The very same day the doctor told us to prepare for hospice, MB and I said, "Fu*k That!", Hospice is a dirty word at our house.We started applying to the Burzynski Clinic as soon as we got home from the doctors appointmet, after 3 days of collecting medical records and sending faxes we were finally accepted.We never took time to think, we just acted. No more than a week and half after we were told to go home and prepare for death, we were on a plane headed to Houston TX in search of life and a second chance. We've left California and our family during Thanksgiving.

Even though the treatment is crazy expensive and we are away from home during the holidays, this is still the best decision we ever made. Sometimes you have to bet big to win big!

We aren't the Kardashians, we are just the Vargas' and we are going through the "realest" hardest battle of our lives...This is our story....If you'd like to start reading from the very beginning click on November, on the lower right hand side of the page and the very first post is the "Adventure Begins"

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Embracing Change

Breaking Dawn at the Break of Dawn in Houston, I couldn't believe there were this many people at 10am!

Our Texas whip!..what what

Mom picking out fresh organic veggies at Whole Foods in Houston

It finally hit me, my Mom is sick. I can't push her to the limits anymore. I was always so used to her moving at my pace. I'm fast, I talk fast, I walk fast, I want things done fast. My Mom used to be like that too but ever since she got sick she does things a lot slower if at all.

I wanted to go to the movies today but she couldn't go because it physically hurts her to sit for too long because of the Tumor in her back. I went alone and when I came back I let her know how it went. I felt bad because I knew she would have liked it. She also walks slower because of the tenderness of the tumors on her liver and her abdomen, a lot slower. A bump on the road is painful for her so I have to be careful when I drive that its not to bumpy. 

When we made it to the register at Whole Foods she had to sit down because her back started hurting. Her world has changed so much and I really don't know how she does it. I am constantly in awe of her strength.

My teacher text me today, it looks like he's leaving on Tuesday. It sucks because I thought he could be my hang out buddy, somedays I get bored being cooped up in the hotel but it's only two more weeks. Maybe i'll make some new friends next week. Here's hoping. Mom's attitude was great today and it has definitely been a better day emotionally. When my Mom gets sad it's like the lights get turned off so it's important for me to keep her happy. She's my Sunshine, My Mama Bear;)

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