Fighting Stage 4 Leiomyosarcoma one day at a time

Hello Everyone,

Thank You for visiting, I initially started this blog to keep family and close friends updated on our journey to Houston Texas, to visit with Dr. Burzynski, a world renowned doctor, who specializes in cancer.

A year and a half ago, MB was diagnosed with stage 4 Uterine Leiomyosarcoma and given no more than a year to live.

MB is only 50, she hasn't seen any of her kids get married or have babies. She still has a thirst for life, three kids and a Husband who absolutely adores her. My sister is 23 and youngest brother only 17. We still need our Mama Bear. If you are, or were, blessed enough to have an MB like mine, who has always loved you unconditionally and supported you, you will know how we feel. Nothing can replace a mother's love. Nothing.

Because MB's cancer is very aggressive, we had no time to waste. The very same day the doctor told us to prepare for hospice, MB and I said, "Fu*k That!", Hospice is a dirty word at our house.We started applying to the Burzynski Clinic as soon as we got home from the doctors appointmet, after 3 days of collecting medical records and sending faxes we were finally accepted.We never took time to think, we just acted. No more than a week and half after we were told to go home and prepare for death, we were on a plane headed to Houston TX in search of life and a second chance. We've left California and our family during Thanksgiving.

Even though the treatment is crazy expensive and we are away from home during the holidays, this is still the best decision we ever made. Sometimes you have to bet big to win big!

We aren't the Kardashians, we are just the Vargas' and we are going through the "realest" hardest battle of our lives...This is our story....If you'd like to start reading from the very beginning click on November, on the lower right hand side of the page and the very first post is the "Adventure Begins"

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion;)

It's hard to see my Mom cry because she is normally so strong. Last night, I could just see it on her face that something was wrong. She had been feeling back pain all day, then in the evening she started coughing. These seemingly harmless symptoms are actually more serious with her because she has a tumor on her spine so the back pain is due to the tumor and tumors on her lungs and if her cough gets worse its a sign her lung tumors are getting larger.

When I looked over at her I could see she was thinking to much so I told her to stop worrying. Thats when she just started crying and telling me that maybe her cancer was just too advanced and it was too late for her. I reminded her of the patients we have seen at the clinic that come in in wheelchairs and told her we have to keep fighting. Then, I asked her if she just felt lik crying that maybe we could cry together. So we did, we cried for a good 15 minutes, we let all the fears and worries out. After that we prayed washed our faces and went right to sleep.

This morning she said she slept well and that the crying actually helped her fall asleep faster. Having cancer is like riding a rollercoaster of emotions, somedays you have really good days and some days you have really bad. I applaud my Mom for her strength to keep riding, most would have given up by now. Today will be a better day I can feel it!


  1. You're doing a great job being the support system your mother needs. Unfortunately many find themselves in your shoes and find the strength each day to continue. I'll pray so that you stay strong and help your mom win the battle against cancer.

  2. Thank You anonymous, It's definitely been a battle. When I get the urge to feel sorry for myself I just think of the thousands of people fighting this disease and I'm thankful for my health and the oppurtunity to be here with my MB. Thank You for your prayers!

  3. No las conosco pero soy made , hija , hermana y se lo mucho q duele tener a un familiar enfermo q Dios les de fortaleza en estos momentos tan dificiles y todos ustedes estaran en nuestras oraciones.

  4. Un enorme abrazo a MB q Dios le de la fortaleza para combatir la enfermedad.

  5. Gracias sus palabras de apollo son muy especiales para nosotros, gracias por el apollo y los resos