Fighting Stage 4 Leiomyosarcoma one day at a time

Hello Everyone,

Thank You for visiting, I initially started this blog to keep family and close friends updated on our journey to Houston Texas, to visit with Dr. Burzynski, a world renowned doctor, who specializes in cancer.

A year and a half ago, MB was diagnosed with stage 4 Uterine Leiomyosarcoma and given no more than a year to live.

MB is only 50, she hasn't seen any of her kids get married or have babies. She still has a thirst for life, three kids and a Husband who absolutely adores her. My sister is 23 and youngest brother only 17. We still need our Mama Bear. If you are, or were, blessed enough to have an MB like mine, who has always loved you unconditionally and supported you, you will know how we feel. Nothing can replace a mother's love. Nothing.

Because MB's cancer is very aggressive, we had no time to waste. The very same day the doctor told us to prepare for hospice, MB and I said, "Fu*k That!", Hospice is a dirty word at our house.We started applying to the Burzynski Clinic as soon as we got home from the doctors appointmet, after 3 days of collecting medical records and sending faxes we were finally accepted.We never took time to think, we just acted. No more than a week and half after we were told to go home and prepare for death, we were on a plane headed to Houston TX in search of life and a second chance. We've left California and our family during Thanksgiving.

Even though the treatment is crazy expensive and we are away from home during the holidays, this is still the best decision we ever made. Sometimes you have to bet big to win big!

We aren't the Kardashians, we are just the Vargas' and we are going through the "realest" hardest battle of our lives...This is our story....If you'd like to start reading from the very beginning click on November, on the lower right hand side of the page and the very first post is the "Adventure Begins"

Monday, January 9, 2012

Thank YOU

Together we all are stronger!
I spend a lot of time bitching about the people that make our lives miserable, so I'm going to take a time out and send out a big, huge, THANK YOU.

Thank You to all the family, friends and even strangers who take time out of their day to send us an uplifting message, bring us food, give us money, share a book. Today, one of my best friends sent me the most amazing message. She lost her mother when she was 23 and has some amazing insight into what I'm going through, here is a piece of what she wrote that made me cry and feel better all at the same time, from my SexyVbear, SVB for short,

" mom won't be around to see who I marry (to approve or not), to help me with my wedding or my first pregnancy or see her grandchildren.  but she'll still be there, she's always a part of me, forever and even if she's not physically there, i know her love is.  i know that no matter who i marry or how many kids i have (or even how i have them) she'll have loved them all because that's the person that she was.

that's one of the greatest gifts ever our mom's have given us is love.  it won't matter when she passes, her love will always live on, whether mom's pass away when you're 23 or when you're 73."

I love having smart friends, best decision I've ever made is surround myself with grounded, smart, mature people with good jobs! SVB also bought me lunch today, score! All kidding aside, having good friends and family is key to getting through rough patches. I've had friends protest with me, go to doctors appointments with me, listen to me cry over the phone. My BFF Ada, always answers when I call or calls back within seconds because she knows I need to cry or vent, and she's one of the few people I feel comfortable being a little bitch with.
My parents have also made some great friends throughout the years. My little brother's Godmother is amazing! She brings us food once a week and today she's like, "Can I write you a check?". My first response to that is always, "HELL YAH!". MB is proud and would like to spend her entire life savings before she continues to take money. She Would. That's why people Love her. Because she's not needy or vulnerable even when she needs to be. I tell my parents not to be proud but their old school.

My dad's friends brought food yesterday and it was AMAZING too. I personally like it when people bring food because then I don't have to cook. Like today, I took MB to her doctor's appointment and wasn't stressed about rushing home and making dinner for the family because it was already done. So Thank You to all of you who make our lives easier with your small and big acts of kindness. We Love and appreciate it!

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