God has his way of changing us......

MB now, no hair, inner beauty shining!

MB 1 year ago, at our Superbowl party

As I sit and talk with MB, the funniest things come out of her mouth. She remembers how she would obsess over her looks, spending up to 3 hours a day getting ready for a party. Now, she says she just wants to feel better and doesn't even care how she looks.

God has a way of changing us without us knowing it. I won't lie, I like looking good, but I no longer obsess over it. After I shower, I take a good look at myself in the mirror and even though what I see isn't perfect, I thank God for what I have. I thank him for all my working parts and promise him that I'll try to be healthier so my jiggly parts don't get too jiggly.

I see girls worry about the right clothes, the right boobs, the right style. Spending hundreds if not thousands of dollars on "stuff" and I laugh. I don't judge. Everyone is entitled to get whatever they need to feel good but if "stuff" makes you feel good than your playing the game of life wrong. You won't be able to take the "stuff" with you when you die.

Yesterday, my friend and I saw a woman at the mall. She had fake boobs, fake blonde hair, a nose job, fake lips and some work done on her face. I looked at my friend and asked him, "What do you think that says about her insides?" he joked, "Their probably fake too!"

Don't get me wrong, taking care of yourself is important, but be the best YOU you can be. I promise, its been my experience that people are drawn to someone who is genuine,real, kind, smart and thoughtful. Big Boobs with a bad attitude will only get you so far, trust me I Know! I used to be a big tittied brat when I lived in LA.

MB's cancer hasn't made me less bratty, it's just made me more thoughtful and kind. I try to be more patient but I'm still working on that. My whole family has changed. Grumpy PB tries not to be so grumpy. When he feels the need to get a little rowdy he goes outside and calms down first. He's never done that before. Usually he just yells until we all leave the room.

Cancer is a bad ass Bitch, but like all bad ass bitches she ends up teaching you something whether you liked it or not. Your physical body may suffer but your spirit will grow and evolve past it. Like MB said last night, "God has entrusted us (my family) with the greatest challenge of all, but through patience, communication and Love we will get through it and make him proud".