Fighting Stage 4 Leiomyosarcoma one day at a time

Hello Everyone,

Thank You for visiting, I initially started this blog to keep family and close friends updated on our journey to Houston Texas, to visit with Dr. Burzynski, a world renowned doctor, who specializes in cancer.

A year and a half ago, MB was diagnosed with stage 4 Uterine Leiomyosarcoma and given no more than a year to live.

MB is only 50, she hasn't seen any of her kids get married or have babies. She still has a thirst for life, three kids and a Husband who absolutely adores her. My sister is 23 and youngest brother only 17. We still need our Mama Bear. If you are, or were, blessed enough to have an MB like mine, who has always loved you unconditionally and supported you, you will know how we feel. Nothing can replace a mother's love. Nothing.

Because MB's cancer is very aggressive, we had no time to waste. The very same day the doctor told us to prepare for hospice, MB and I said, "Fu*k That!", Hospice is a dirty word at our house.We started applying to the Burzynski Clinic as soon as we got home from the doctors appointmet, after 3 days of collecting medical records and sending faxes we were finally accepted.We never took time to think, we just acted. No more than a week and half after we were told to go home and prepare for death, we were on a plane headed to Houston TX in search of life and a second chance. We've left California and our family during Thanksgiving.

Even though the treatment is crazy expensive and we are away from home during the holidays, this is still the best decision we ever made. Sometimes you have to bet big to win big!

We aren't the Kardashians, we are just the Vargas' and we are going through the "realest" hardest battle of our lives...This is our story....If you'd like to start reading from the very beginning click on November, on the lower right hand side of the page and the very first post is the "Adventure Begins"

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Dear Friends

I would like to begin by thanking all of you for being so supportive during this difficult time. My very close friends know that I have stopped going out. If you would like to see me during the following months you will have to come to my house if you want to "hang out".

For the time being I don't want to go out to dinner, or tea, or drinking, or dancing, or any party of the sort. During this time, my full attention and energy will be devoted to MB and spending time with my family. My close friends understand this and everyone else can fuck off.

I would also like to tell you to please not ask me how I feel or how I'm doing because those are really stupid and ignorant questions. How the FUCK do you think I'm doing?! MB is whithering away that's how I'm fucking doing so stop asking dumb ass questions.  If I want to talk I'll call you so stop asking me that too. Also if you do come to my house just act normal. I hate those fake ass I'm so sorry looks, I hate long creepy hugs and I hate weird awkward sympathetic glances. If you do any of this I will tell you to Fuck Off and go home.

Sorry for my anger I'm just annoyed.


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